Nah man, I had dust in my eyes.

A few things are becomming abundantly clear. 1, there is now a third movie that is "guaranteed to make me cry". The first 2, for those who don't know, are armageddon, and tears of the sun. The part in Armageddon where Col Sharp walks up to "big lip ugly girl" and says "I'd just like to shake the had of the daughter of the bravest man I've ever met"...sheesh, I'm tearing up just thinking about it. Now, if you haven't seen tears of the sun, its an awesome movie about a platoon of men who are getting the royal cosmic bitch-slap for like 2 days of their lives. Its really an emotionally draining experience for the first 90% of the movie, its like "how can they take any more?"....and then the US military rains napalm death down on the bad guys and everything gets better. I always cry when the jets come streaking in with the napalm. That's a great scene.

The third movie is 50-first dates, and that's all I'll say about that cause there's nothing manly or heroic about it, its just sweet.

Secondly, I've failed to properly realize the emotional effects of switching from cutting to bulking. My current goal is to gain weight up until 210lbs, and then loose weight back to 195, and continue this process until I'm happy with myself. Today I weighed more than friday(no crap, that's the plan), and I was dissappointed. This whole gaining weight thing is going to be a tough adjustment. I've been living in a loose weight world for about 6 months straight now. The good side of this is that i get to eat more quiznos, and I don't have to feel bad about eating terrible food more often.

Thirdly, while gaining weight, you have to eat a bunch of calories...but not bad calories, they have to be good calories. To get a lot of good calories, you need to eat MASSIVE amounts of healthy food. I just ate a full pound of extra lean beef and some vegetables. Its getting expensive, and I don't know how much more I can eat. I still don't think I hit a calorie surplus for the day yet. I need some meal replacements or something.